[IC] Elena's Holodiary

[Theprettiestorc]

Log 8

The sounds of rain again, plinking against metal in a steady patter. The voice is feeble at first, before she clears her throat. "Bggghgghhggh. Getting... getting water from my r-robes. Logs while I d-do."

"Incident in the Archives. Johran was hovering around the L-Lorekeeper's desk. Admonished Acolyte Joslae for her disrespect. Later, Apprentice Leivé confronted him about it. Back and forth all day."

"Asked Sith Soti and Sith Tarati about Force Tapas. Both rebuked me. Apprentices Zeldris and Leivé gave me good advice. Alternated training inside with Force Shock, learned from" *kzzt* "and meditating outside, working on retaining heat. Came back to the training room to witness Leivé sparring Apprentice Khatatas. He had a blade imbued with the Dark Side. Will ask later... he lost fingers, went to the infirmary. I managed to get my request in, so he will provide a Thermal Suit. I will continue working on Tapas in the meantime."

"... we now have Acolyte Taenya, Apprentice Kaidar, and Apprentice Vax. Lattermost is... Sam, but new. Different. New arm, new legs, and a different attitude. He is much more subservient, and less... cocky. But he seems to still..." Cutting off, letting out a sigh. "... Lord Sanguinis used a strange technique on Leivé. She mentioned 'what he saw', and the power was substantial. Did he read her mind? Told me to bow my head around him, he hates me watching. Accompanied her downstairs, massaged her headache away." That's all she's saying on that matter.

"I... shouldn't ignore it any longer. I have Seen a poof of smoke in the lounge, where there shouldn't be. I could have sworn I Saw the faint form of a Twi'lek on Korriban, which lasted a few seconds. Today, in the lobby, I swear I Saw two guards appear and disappear almost instantly... without the Sense they were armored or armed. I am Seeing strange things already - I must gain control of my mind, compartmentalize, ground myself in reality. I will stave off the Madness as long as I can. Meditation will help, as even Sith must know when to stay their emotions, and when to call on them."

"Anyway. Apprentice Orgkez... measure of solidarity. He means well, but I worry he will struggle to compete against new Apprentices. Leivé... strong. Many Apprentices are now gaining Lightsabers. Apprentice Vaenra... taught a lesson on Force Wound, useful against non-users of the Force. Must train my Telekinetics to get further. Will combine training as much as possible, maximize learning. Maximize use of non-corruptive techniques, stave off my... Entropy."

"Getting better around Our Dark Lord, Darth Horuset. Getting used to hovering about the Dark Side. Getting used to playing with fire. I feel niceties becoming a front for Ambitions, Alliance. I must become, and remain, more useful than detrimental to the House as long as possible. Heard Apprentice Rûnil discuss paths. Considered myself Sorcerer, due to natural alignment with the Force, but may be my ultimate downfall, the fastest path to no return. Seems to be common though. Will debate later. Must get home."

Stepping through halls, sounds of doors opening, closing. The elevator... and inside, she begins to sing softly, in relative privacy. A sad song, one of mourning. For whom, though, or what? Only she might know.