Memoirs and Recollection of a Fractured Heart - Sovernus Nova

[Lord Iezkon]

Entry #5 of Horuset Chronicles:
Remembrance of the One That Mattered Most

***A creative expression of one’s love and regret, complimented with thoughts of a long lost loved one. ***

I continuously wake at odd hours in cold sweat, my emotions compels me to relive old wounds and agony. Memories of what transpired in the Korriban Academy inspires more dread than any ghastly abominations.
Even in the bleakness of darkness, the visualization of your blood remains tainted upon my trembling hands...

Mental chains are gradually becoming meaningless...His presence is beginning to become undeniable, my last bastion of control is the thin membrane that separates him from this world.
I desperately need a method in which to expel these emotions...Perhaps I've pivoted more towards my rationality that I neglected the more creative expressions of my emotions...A moment of melancholic contemplation is what I need...

...I dedicate this to you.

I hear the collapse of the universe.
Ruptures of stars colliding in illumination.
Blooming in graceful supernovas.

I felt your astral touch.
Tracing constellations upon my soul.
Folding upon beautiful layers of reality.

Could we ever hope to freeze time?
To hold the cosmos in our embrace.
Cradling the warmth of millions in our hands.

To wash upon the tranquil waves of gravity
Swimming freely through the vastness of space
An eternity travelled in one lifetime.

Dreams. Fabricated hope. Nothing more.

Forever is a distant memory.
The stains of your lifeline spilled across galaxies.
A ghastly reminder to those
that once looked up to the sky with hope.

I hear the inevitable drowning of my heartbeat
You left me and my reflection by the Sea
Now I cradle the emptiness of space.
To contemplate alone within the void.

Once I believed in forever.

That the two of us would be together for all eternity.
I felt most alive and exhilarated when I was with you.
As I’m imprinting my bleeding emotions into this canvas, I am overwhelmed by my thoughts of you.

How many words would it take to accurately express what you meant to me?
How could you scientifically quantify how much lighter I became when you entered my day, or how heavy I felt when you left?
How can I describe how my smile just appear magnetically when I saw your face?

No amount of observation could ever describe the fathomless depth of your beauty.
No analysis could ever describe precisely how you lovingly pulled my heartstrings.
For once in my life, I was willing to accept something without the need to know why.
If only to hold onto that moment in perpetuity.

But I was naive and foolish.
Forever was too good.
I realized now that my obsession with power had blinded me from the more important things in life.
Now more than anything,
I wish to be reborn into a life where the two of us could be together.

...Forever.