"Tave iyutrekyr iv Zia"

[Caffeline]

[The following entries are typed on a datapad with a standard encryption lock. Far more accessible if someone were to steal or look through, though the entries themselves are passcode-protected]

The Corporal got promoted to Sergeant. Not before time, but thoroughly earned. I ended up teaching him the basics of how to use a Thought Shield a few days afterwards. He seemed to get the knack of the idea quite fast, though as with everything it will take time to master.

...

Two surprises in quick succession!

Ri Cûccusuti summoned me to the riverside and handed me a lightsaber to demonstrate my improvements in Niman. Actually being able to hold a lightsaber; to wield it. Utterly exhilarating. I understand more, now, why the velocities and drills with the foils are so demanding and precise. The balance is subtly different. The handling more nuanced.

I'd like to think I did well enough.

Ri Cûccusuti seemed to agree, declaring that I was proficient in Niman despite the mistakes - I was showing that I was learning and adapting throughout.

I'm now allowed to pursue my third form, if I wish. I requested permission to learn Shien - not least because of the obvious battlefield applications. They wanted to know my reasoning beyond that...so I told them. It's one half of a form, and since I know I'll never be able to wield Djem So effectively, I can at least understand its theory and weaknesses through Shien - plus it will help focus my attention on the minutae of angles that decide between death, survival and limb loss.

They then commented about how such would help me defeat their apprentice.

As if basic Shien knowledge would provide such opportunity... I doubt I will ever be able to beat their apprentices. Still, they granted permission for me to learn Shien. I suspect it's a far more common form than Niman. Teachers shouldn't be too hard to track down.

But then the second surprise. They stated outright that they were thinking of claiming me as their apprentice when I complete the Trials. The main path to sorcery, potentially within my grasp...

Is War the right fit for me though? I think... I think that Ri Tutai hinted they were considering taking on an apprentice when last we spoke. They said that Ri Cûccusuti was 'a' path to sorcery but not the only path. It would be easier to learn sorcery from the main source, but the better Sith does not seek the easy path.

Perhaps I can coax other adoption intentions from Sith and Lords? From what Ri Tzihra Kota mentioned, I doubt they intend to claim me. I think I would outright refuse Ri Atuzirsi Wo if they decided to claim me. What happens if there is a contest over me? Would I choose my own master, or would it be the strongest who seizes the opportunity?

...

There was an ambush on the Republic's forces as they moved to attack us. Ri Cirih Iutuin had me running everywhere with messages during the setup. They did at least sign off on me wearing armour - and using a proper vibroblade! I only used it briefly, but it was so satisfying..

But then. This voice in my head. I had never heard it before, but...it was terrifying. It evaporated my defences like lava to ice. There was no way to slow or stop it. Wrath incarnate, terrifying purpose, cold intention. The command to know my own potential. The encouragement to break free from the chains of my institution. All this within the roaring tsunami of pain and foreboding. I heard whispers of the name of the one who bellowed through the Force.

Malgus.

The projection churned the well of power within me, enhancing my abilities for a moment. I could almost feel my eyes burning when I wielded the Force afterwards. I was so furious. To be infected from across hyperspace by the emotions of another? My hand is still trembling as I type this.

I am but an insect to one with such power... what would he care for me? My own journey is just beginning. I know my loyalties. They remain absolute, no matter the intention of one whom betrayed his own kind and faction.

...

Ri Cirih Iutuin stated I was 'adequate' afterwards. Then ordered me to return the contraband.

Damnit.

Maybe next time.

...

Ri Satwas stated they intended to perform a ritual tomorrow, to glean information and secrets from a dead jedi. They need another as an energy battery and told me I would assist them.

A chance to see another facet of sorcery? Of course I agreed. It's definitely the only reason. I can only hope that I do not disappoint.