Zartilda's Journal (And Assorted Tales)

[Theprettiestorc]

Journal 1: First Entry

I think that's about good, I've had enough of formatting for one lifetime. Xelan told me I should start a journal or the like to get my thoughts down, so I can keep track of the changes. I've been tired lately, and I'll have to check this in the future in case I forget. Where I came from, where I'm going. I'm on a ledge, soaked in rain, that I could either slip from, or cross to higher things.

Monhura, Sissuo... I guess this is weighing on me. He nearly died, Viren, trying to touch the sun. And he succeeded too, with armor I made for him. I've said that this is a man I'd die for in battle, but not one to bring around my family, and yet, somehow. This man that saw more in me than I saw in him, I've become close to. I would consider him a brother, yet there are things I wouldn't talk to him of. That's how a sibling is, though. He gave me a piece to keep, depicting his daughter. Sorzus Amanda Sekker. When I met him, the man was all but blind to love, but he found it with his closest friend, and they had a daughter. I guess Tse'kira and Viren have guided my whole path, though, from Acolyte to where I am now.

Waiting, I guess, or rather working at ascension. Going towards Sith, and probably beyond. His words stoked a fire I didn't have before, but maybe that's the nature of him. I'm rambling here, just writing down a stream of consciousness. I should get my thoughts of the past couple days out first. Fought alongside Naile for a while, that was really nice. He remarked on my change. I heard Rhave say that word, too. Vina, Vina, Vina. It was my word from her, it... didn't piss me off. Just made me a bit sad. Feels like I lost a lot of time there, but I think it maybe showed that I needed to grow some too. Move on.

Maybe I'll start some history for the next entry, as best as I can remember it. I'm realizing suddenly that me being tired and me drinking more recently is also tied with people doing their own things. Some kind of abandonment issue? That would only make sense. I'll really have to start from scratch then. I'm actually falling asleep now, insomnia's broken.