Zartilda's Journal (And Assorted Tales)

[Theprettiestorc]

Journal 6: Bonds Forged

Taking a break from doing some sorely-needed renovations to my apartment, changing out a few bulbs and panels and swapping out bunk beds for regular ones. Just what I can afford reasonably for now. I moved my sisters out already, and the animals, so it's just me. But I'm prepping for the idea that I'll have Apprentices, perhaps. Memories are abound throughout this place, but it's time to change it with the times.

I'm feeling refreshed, with an ordeal done. Sith Steel! It's a precious small thing, the ingot, but everyone close has informed me of the weight it holds for me as a person. I'm just glad to have finally finished getting my hands burned and my lungs assaulted. I've still got a bit of a rasp here and there from it. The mess in my training hall became inspiration for a new amulet, meaning I can retire my mother's training piece. It'll go alongside her saber and my dad's, so that I have something to pass to my siblings. Give them more than I started with.

That's a good lead-in. I didn't even know how to make a saber crystal until Sith Narazri sat down with me. Following Neophytehood and the conflict with Sith Tarimra, and the absolute mess of glassing Dubrillion, I was basically starting fresh. Myself, Neophyte Temekel Vipion, and Neophyte Viren Sekker formed a trio of doom, practicing with each other and advancing. Both of them are ascended now, all three of us different generations, but at that time, we relied heavily on each other. We performed tasks to get the Powerbase up to snuff, Priority Aurek, and there were a few low moments. Killing soldiers, killing Jedi initiates. Defining, ultimately, but they were low for me at the time, and I persevered. Sith Vipion and Sith Zevasa are still my close comrades, both with kids, and I'd murder for their sakes in a heartbeat.

It was after the Aurek things that Sith Zarchas ascended - so I hopped onto the opportunity with a slot. I told Sith Narazri, once a man I'd fought against, that I could see how strong he was. Honestly? Narazri didn't sell out or discard the people underneath him, so while Sith Arvanis started strong, he continuously lost allies and his support eroded. Narazri persevered, and even though the Lord title they fought for went to Sith Saltaeon, he endured. We talked about what kind of Sith I wanted to be, and I said I wanted to create. I wanted to make myself better, and others, by forge or by battle. I lost that a little bit along the way, but I got it back.

Between himself and Sith Vipion, I got into Alchemy. He taught me more firmly how to protect my mind, keep it safe. Ironically, he's the very reason I have a dislike of people in my head, but things always come full circle for me. He taught me that the ultimate goal of a Sith is freedom. And it's right there, at the end of the Code, that last little line. But most importantly, I've been able to use his forge and his Estate, which has been a mess for travel, but it's gotten me through.

I'm thinking I should do something with my hair, it's getting longer. Next thing to talk on... Overseers? Overseers.